I smiled alone for the first time in years
Seems like it was so long ago
The feeling is so aged and refined
I cannot believe that this was so hard to find
Alone and desperate I was so lost (so lost)
What was I doing relying on lust?
What was I thinking to be that way? (that way)
This is such a joke, I'm gonna be okay
I am so, so ashamed
Hiding myself from this pain
I can't live like this anymore
There's gotta be a stop to this
I need to pick myself up
From the floor
Alone and desperate I was so lost (so lost)
What was I doing relying on lust?
What was I thinking to be that way? (that way)
This is such a joke, I'm gonna be okay (okay, okay)
Such a fucking ghost to myself
This is the first time I felt...
This is the first time I felt (okay with myself)
This is the first time I felt (in so long, so long)
This is the first time, this is the first (ooh, ooh)
This is the first time I felt (in so long, so damn long)
What was I doing
I'm gonna be okay
What was I thinking? (this is the first time I felt)
I'm gonna be okay
What was I doing?
I'm gonna be okay
What was I thinking?
What was I doing?
What was I thinking?
I'm gonna be okay